I have such a horrible sleeping schedule. I find myself laying awake in bed everynight for an hour or two before I finally give up trying to force myself into slumper. I finally give up and find myself right here, sitting at this machine searching for a way to entertain myself to sleep.
I know that it is horrible to eat before one goes to sleep but I just had a huge plate of chicken pesto pasta. I made it today with corn/vegtable gluten free twisty pasta. I'm trying to eat wheat free products because so far two people in my family have been tested positive for celiac disease. If you have celiac disease you can still eat wheat but with rather undesirable consequences, the wheat will in fact break your intestinal tract down. I haven't been tested for this ailment but I figure I might as well stay away. I get abdonimnal cramps and headaches when I eat wheat products so I figure I'm fine without them. Although wheat-free pasta is not nearly as good as semolina pasta, it lacks the alluring taste of traditional pasta. If anyone is reading this I am really now writing merely for the sake of my own entertainment so don't feel you must commit to reading the remainder of this entry. I don't know how I got in this aweful predictament. I suppose my schdule of sleep was altered by my night-wakings by Acacia, but now her sleep schedule has leveled out and mine it still out of wack. It's actually amazing how well she sleeps for a 4 month old, she will sleep on a average a whole 12 hours at night! I wish I could sleep that well. Even my dog Ocean sleeps better than me at night! It's just not right. I actually do try to take advantage of the energy I have and clean, read, do my daily exercise (hip hop abs with Sean T, if any of you have seen the infomercial) and fold laundry. Well anyway, I think something that might have a factor in my sleeplessness is I think about the move alot. I am happy to move to Colorado, and excited as I have been in San Diego, California my whole life. But I am also sad, I am sad to leave my family and the friends I have had for so long. There are some very special people here. I really haven't spent a whole lot of time with them since I've been married and had my daughter, but it's the memories. I miss those days. I wouldn't trade it for the here and now but I do have sentimental value for San Diego. I will miss the summers here of surfing, cliff jumping, beach, favorite coffee shops, and the people. I know that now I am begining a whole new life so I will make new friends and memories but still a part of me is saddened by all this. But I know that Jordan is very happy to move back, he is moving back to his family, friends, and memories. I'm sure it will be great once we get there but as of now I'm a little forlorn, but I will have my family and it will be nice to start our own life. Kind of a fresh start, actually a great blessing :)
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I know how bittersweet moves can be. We are excited to have you both back here but I know there is a sad part to it.
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