Heaven

Today me and the hubby sat down at a local coffee shop with a good friend of mine and shared conversation. He is attending seminary and writing a paper on Heaven. We talked a little about Heaven and our understanding of it. I recounted the fear I had as a young child of Heaven, the thought of a place, a life, a situation enduring endlessly and how it gave me an anxiety that I don't know how to explain. It was a fear that eventually led me to push the thought of Heaven from my mind. I feel that in turn it has affected my spiritual life. Recently I have felt God working on my heart, reminding me to look to the things above and not only at this life here on earth. Reminding me that even though I don't understand Heaven, it is a wonderful place where I will be united with Him. Also I felt Him reminding me that I am a stranger here in a foreign land, to not take what happens to me here with the utmost seriosness, and anxiety. I do need to live in this world as a reflection of His light and glory , but also know that this is not my true home. To let go of some of the anxiety and know that the best is yet to come. I was told by my friend that I am not the only one who has these fears which I find consolation in. I think by pushing Heaven back into the least explored places of my mind I've falied to have the mindset of constantly seeking the kingdom of God. I think I will let God continue to work on my heart, set my mind on the things above and remember that ultimately I am just passing through. I so enjoy these conversations we have.