The begining of something beautiful

It has really been too long since I've put my thoughts down on a piece of paper, for about 4 years I kept journals consistantly of my thoughts, what God was showing me, basically what was on my heart or just in my head. So I've come to the conclusion that I spend more time wasted on the computer than I should, but I'm thinking I'll turn it to good and use some of it writing. So here it is.

I suppose I could start out by explaining the gravity of the phrase "Till we have faces" in my life.
First off Till we have faces is a book written by the great author Clive Staples Lewis. It is my favorite book. This book is Lewis' rendition of the classic greek myth of Cupid and Psyche. Basically it is a story of two Princesses, one ugly and one beautiful; and the struggle between sacred and profane love. Till we have faces means that our perceptions can fail us, and how in the name of doing what we think right, we can do so much wrong.
So to get to the point sometimes we don't look past what we can see with our own eyes, and we despair. We ask "Why God would you do this to me or how can you let this happen to me", and "Why have you forsaken me?" But God is there working in a way that we may not be able to see and why is that? We might not be ready, we may not be in a place to recieve and may not have our understanding fully developed. How can we see when we've yet to have a face? How can God talk to me when I don't have a face to share conversation with. This is something that really hits home to me, I've spent my share of time thinking "God what is going on, why? Where are you" and of course we all go through times where we don't quite understand why things are happening the way they are, at least I do. So to remember this phrase in times where I am not completely in a good understanding of my situation is a great help. It's kind of like looking in a mirror dimly lit, not so good. But when face to face, much better.