baby girl

I have the cutest daughter, I know every parent feels that way about their child but I cannot help it. She is so smart! She just learned to sit up the other day and within 24 hrs. of doing that she learned to pull herself up to standing, I love it! I also love how she is "discovering" her voice. She is making these really high pitched noises and sighs. It is wonderful.

I heard someone say that if you add the letter A to a word you get the opposite for example theist and athiest.
Well if you apply the same principle to muse you get amuse.
Don't get me wrong we all need amusement but this could possibly explain why I feel my brain slowly die one cell at a time when I watch family guy.

Tagged

I've been to tagged for the:
First 10 songs to play on shuffle on my ipod

1. Meant to live by Switchfoot
2. Nothing I do by Jamie Cullum
3. Michelle my bell by The Beatles
4. Banana pancakes by Jack Johnson
5. The Park by Jan Kaczmarek
6. Comin' home baby by Michael Buble
7. Baby I love your way by Peter Frampton
8. You're still you by Josh Groban
9. I only have eyes for you by Jamie Cullum
and
10. House of the rising sun by Creedence clearwater

new ride

Oh ya! I have a moped now. Jordan ordered one for us the other day and it finally came. I wasn't sure how I would on it but it's been so much fun. Yay for scooters.

Oh ya and I joined a book club at a little independent book store by my house. Double yay.

What's not set in stone

Am I a whore?
Where is the line I'm not supposed to cross,
Where's the ideal,
What is justice or the prototypical maxim?
I want to be me but I want to be me the right way,
Mentality was created in me,
therefore I will use it,
and paired with truth I will end my reliance on what is not suant.


Just what I found myself scribbling down in my journal, raw. I know I've been dealing with "finding" God lately. I would say that I'm just not satisfied with taking someone else's word for it anymore, because I know I shouldn't and I have everything right in front of me to do so. I continue to see more and more that he is not the prototype that most _______ make Him out to be, or teach of Him. I am also realizing something that I have always proclaimed but never learned myself, to this degree. That I make my identity in Him, not in religion, church, people, or ideas. Because He is the only constant. Through the course of my life almost everything about me has changed, save my name, and God. God is the same and His message is, but just about everything else has and will. I know that God is unchanging but maybe the way I live should?
Basically I know what is set in stone, what there is no wavering from, But that which isn't I think I'm kind of playing with if you will.

Oh feelings

I just finished watching Equilibrium, needless to say it is an amazing movie. I should have known seeing that Christian Bale is the star, my two favorite movies "Empire of the Sun", and "Newsies" both star him. I'm sure almost everyone has already seen it but it was awesome, a mix between "Matrix" and "V for Vendetta".

I feel inspired, hehe pun intended.

Culturally Relevant

"I don’t understand why cross-cultural missionaries attempt to understand culture to present the gospel within it, while churches in the developed world tend to simply withdraw from their own culture, often condemning its evils. Unfortunately for them, our culture is filled with people who need to see real Christianity in action — they’ve seen enough caricatures of Christianity already."

-"Brother Maynard"

Makes sense right?

Nursery

Tonight we tried to go to church at Resurrection fellowship. We took Acacia to the nursery to see how she would do. Normally we take her into the service with us but it has been increasingly harder to pay attention to the message now that she is getting more and more active. But she would not have it, as soon as we got to the sanctuary to get our seats we saw our number called on the little screen to pick her up. When we got there she was soooo upset she was crying, he face was red and she was even streaming tears. I have only seen her tear up on one occasion it was so sad! So I guess she's just not ready to part yet, we will just have to see how it goes.

Misc. Info

I've been tagged for 5 things I dig about Jesus, and 8 things about my self so here goes:

5 things I dig about Jesus

1. He has an appreciation for leftovers, the whole fish and loaves of bread thing, I honestly like most food better a second time around
2. He's blunt
3. He drank/made wine
4. He not one of those people that will take out their wrath on you when angry, ie: den of thieves and doves situation.
5. He was young, and he was pretty damn clever.

8 things about myself

1. I am attracted to green, I buy green clothes, bike, ipod, and I eat sour apple and lime flavored foods/drinks.
2. When I eat popcorn I bite off the crunchy kernel part first and eat it in one side of my mouth, then I eat the soft bulbous part in the other side. OCD.
3. I bite my lips almost every time I eat.
4. I like to perform, I've been in 2 plays, over 15 skits, one mime, and sang for my old church over 50 times.
5. I do anything artsy, paint, draw, read, write, cook, sing, play guitar, theorize, and much more.
6. I am quiet, not because I am shy but because I feel that if I honestly don't have anything to say, I won't say anything.
7. I prefer overcast, rainy, or gloomy days to sunny days. I am more artistically inspired and mentally inspired by such weather.
8. I love people, different people, with different characteristics, looks, and personalities. I like to watch and observe people.

Run Run Run

I was so excited to go on my run this morning figuring that it would be the easiest one yet, because I have gotten progressively better each time. But to my suprise it was the hardest. I was tired and out of breath after interval one! That's pretty bad I know, I could catch my breath, my rythm was off and I just wasn't getting it. It felt like I was having an asthma attack, which I haven't experienced since I was young. But I think my body is just testing me, trying to size me up and see if I'm really serious about this. I'm sure Friday will be much better.

Father's Day praise

Happy Father's Day Jordan!
You have been such an amazing father, and I am so proud of how easily you switched to fatherhood, you are a blessing and me and Acacia love you very much!

Artwork

This is my most recent painting, which really isn't very recent. It was done about two months ago. I don't paint as often as would like but I think I'm going to try to make more time for it.

Homemaker

I am suprised how domesticated I hve become. I've never been one much for rising early, cooking, or cleaning but I have found myself doing all these over this past week. I'm am usually a night owl staying up till 2 or 3 and sleeping till around 11 but I have been going to bed around 12 and waking up at 7! That is big for me. The only thing I've ever really gotten up early for was surfing. I didn't even get up for school most of the time, back in high school. I've also cooked almost every meal this week using new recipes. And today I made these scones that even my brother-in-law thought were amazing. It's been fun being mommy and homemaker. I'm so proud of Acacia too because she has been going along with my new schedule and taking 3 naps around the same time each day. She has conquered her fear of taking a bath and now takes one each night right before she goes to sleep. She's really a little angel and Im very lucky!
And to top it off I've been having lots of time for reading with Acacia napping and all. And if you know me you know I LOVE reading. Now I can actually start off the day with a devo and prayer (which I've been trying to do for the past 6 months)
I never thought I would be a routine person, but I'm actually really enjoying it.

Bolder Boulder

I am so excited because I am going to start training for the Bolder Boulder race with the hubby. I have NEVER been very good at running but I'm determined to work on that. My sister in law knows of a work out program that will take you from couch to 5k, which is exactly what I need. I'm no couch potato but when it comes to running I might as well be. I know Jordan is happy about it because he is a big runner, and has been pushing me to start running with him ever since we started dating. So I'll give it a try!

70s Star Trek

So I ended up watching an old school Star Trek episode tonight, I've never cared for Star Trek much, I think because I've only seen the newer episodes and the aliens on the show always make me a little uneasy. They are just too similar to humans in form, but they definetely aren't humans. Anyway I have never seen the William Shatner era of Star Trek before and I found myself really enjoying it. It has the vintage show feel to it, like "I dream of Jeanie", "Gilligan's Island" and such. I love the women with the big flipped hair and fake eye lashes and the men who have the bangs combed to the side and the rest of their hair combed all the way back. It was pretty awesome. I also never realised how ahead of their time Star Trek was, with their multi-racial cast and all. With the scottish man, the african woman, asian man, and Spock whatever he is. I found it kind of interesting because of all the 70s shows and movies I've seen (at least early 70s) I haven't noticed much racial diversity. I just found that observation kind of interesting. It was an overal pleasant experience.

Sexy ice cream

So me and Jordan were having a convesation about the Ice cream names of a certain generic brand we buy from King Soopers. As we were eating our English Toffee Temptation, we contemplated the name of the peant butter ice cream, Peanut Butter Passion. I honestly would never think to put the words peanut butter and passion together in a sentence, ever. I am biased though because I don't care much for peanut butter. So as we consumed our ice cream we came up with some possible ideas for ice cream flavors in the future such as: lemon lust, sultry strawberry, vanilla virgin, adulturous apple, and orange... well you get the picture.

Boxes

So today me and Jordan were doing our morning readings and as I was reading I began to realize once again that God really doesn't fit into this box I've made for Him. The more I see Him the more I comprehend that I won't completely understand Him till I meet Him. Mighty but gentle, and loving but will punish. It gives me a reverence for Him, which is good.

I'm the Boss

So I've decided that I'm the Boss is the most fun game I've ever played, especially when played at the Bells house.

Vacation

So I made here to Colorado safely after almost 24 hours of straight driving except for the 4 hour interlude for sleep. It was a long drive but interesting. But I am glad it is over, it makes the trip more worth it knowing that we don't have to re drive it in a couple of weeks. I don't think I am fully used to being here yet, I keep thinking I am on vacation and find myself expecting to be back home in San Diego. It's nice out here this time of year, Lot's of trees, lots of green and it's not a scorching 90 degrees like in El Cajon.
I am so glad I had the chance to reunite with old friends before our departure from California, it made me realize how blessed I am to have people that I love so much, in my life. I hope I can keep in contact with most of them but I know how moving goes. I'm sure I will keep in touch with those who I'm supposed to.
Well I'm glad I'm here and Acacia seems to be adjusting well, but we do miss my family terribly! My mom and brother are thinking of moving out here once she completes her masters degree. Hopefully that is soon, because I know they miss us too. Other than that things are great :)

setting sail

Only 3 days till we leave for Colorado! I can't believe how fast this last month went by, seems like we just decided last week that we were leaving. I still don't wholly feel like we are leaving, but I'm sure it will kick in at our going away party or the night before we take off. I can't imagine life away from San Diego yet, it will be very different from what I'm used to. But my home is in God so I know that wherever I go I will still be at home. I hope we find a home church there fairly quickly, and that we will just know where God wants us.

Heaven

Today me and the hubby sat down at a local coffee shop with a good friend of mine and shared conversation. He is attending seminary and writing a paper on Heaven. We talked a little about Heaven and our understanding of it. I recounted the fear I had as a young child of Heaven, the thought of a place, a life, a situation enduring endlessly and how it gave me an anxiety that I don't know how to explain. It was a fear that eventually led me to push the thought of Heaven from my mind. I feel that in turn it has affected my spiritual life. Recently I have felt God working on my heart, reminding me to look to the things above and not only at this life here on earth. Reminding me that even though I don't understand Heaven, it is a wonderful place where I will be united with Him. Also I felt Him reminding me that I am a stranger here in a foreign land, to not take what happens to me here with the utmost seriosness, and anxiety. I do need to live in this world as a reflection of His light and glory , but also know that this is not my true home. To let go of some of the anxiety and know that the best is yet to come. I was told by my friend that I am not the only one who has these fears which I find consolation in. I think by pushing Heaven back into the least explored places of my mind I've falied to have the mindset of constantly seeking the kingdom of God. I think I will let God continue to work on my heart, set my mind on the things above and remember that ultimately I am just passing through. I so enjoy these conversations we have.

For Me

Sometimes I need to remind myself to just be still and know that He is God.

To be quiet, sink, let go, relax, abate, refrain, withdraw

I could definetely stand to do that and just wait for God, so I'm going to be quiet now.
Ps. 46:10a

fam

Family blogsite:
www.lifeinthehalls.blogspot.com

Bride of Messiah

Sleep?

I have such a horrible sleeping schedule. I find myself laying awake in bed everynight for an hour or two before I finally give up trying to force myself into slumper. I finally give up and find myself right here, sitting at this machine searching for a way to entertain myself to sleep.
I know that it is horrible to eat before one goes to sleep but I just had a huge plate of chicken pesto pasta. I made it today with corn/vegtable gluten free twisty pasta. I'm trying to eat wheat free products because so far two people in my family have been tested positive for celiac disease. If you have celiac disease you can still eat wheat but with rather undesirable consequences, the wheat will in fact break your intestinal tract down. I haven't been tested for this ailment but I figure I might as well stay away. I get abdonimnal cramps and headaches when I eat wheat products so I figure I'm fine without them. Although wheat-free pasta is not nearly as good as semolina pasta, it lacks the alluring taste of traditional pasta. If anyone is reading this I am really now writing merely for the sake of my own entertainment so don't feel you must commit to reading the remainder of this entry. I don't know how I got in this aweful predictament. I suppose my schdule of sleep was altered by my night-wakings by Acacia, but now her sleep schedule has leveled out and mine it still out of wack. It's actually amazing how well she sleeps for a 4 month old, she will sleep on a average a whole 12 hours at night! I wish I could sleep that well. Even my dog Ocean sleeps better than me at night! It's just not right. I actually do try to take advantage of the energy I have and clean, read, do my daily exercise (hip hop abs with Sean T, if any of you have seen the infomercial) and fold laundry. Well anyway, I think something that might have a factor in my sleeplessness is I think about the move alot. I am happy to move to Colorado, and excited as I have been in San Diego, California my whole life. But I am also sad, I am sad to leave my family and the friends I have had for so long. There are some very special people here. I really haven't spent a whole lot of time with them since I've been married and had my daughter, but it's the memories. I miss those days. I wouldn't trade it for the here and now but I do have sentimental value for San Diego. I will miss the summers here of surfing, cliff jumping, beach, favorite coffee shops, and the people. I know that now I am begining a whole new life so I will make new friends and memories but still a part of me is saddened by all this. But I know that Jordan is very happy to move back, he is moving back to his family, friends, and memories. I'm sure it will be great once we get there but as of now I'm a little forlorn, but I will have my family and it will be nice to start our own life. Kind of a fresh start, actually a great blessing :)

Hamas Mickey Mouse

On Hamas' official television station, Al Aqsa-TV, airs a children's program featuring a mickey mouse look-alike named Farfur. On this show he is seen teaching a young girl the ABCs of terror, annilation of the Jews, the honor of martrydom and the sacrifice of one's soul for the Hamas. Children grow up so fast these days. Pretty crazy.

Unfair Israel

Green Theory

So today I found myself thinking about the presidential campaigns going on right now and a rumor I heard about Al Gore wanting to run for presidency just to sway the democratic vote in efforts of spite towards Hillary Clinton. I guess there's bad blood there. Which got me thinking about Al Gore in general. I know he's recently gone green and produced the documentary, An Inconvenient Truth. I guess he is out to save our planet from the "climate crisis", don't get me wrong I'm all about being good to our earth and taking care of what we have but it just seems a little random to me. So I did a little research and I found out something rather interesting about our former vice president.

Fact :
Al Gore was born March 31, 1948

Fact:
On July 2, 1947 an incident happened in the small town of Roswell, New Mexico. It was then that the first major UFO sighting/crash occured.

That is almost exactly 9 months before Al Gore was born, coincidence?

Question:
Was there really a UFO crash in Roswell?
No one can really know for sure but I've been there myself and I do know that the residents of that town sure seem to think so.

But more importantly...
Question:
Could Gore have an ulterior motive for his environmentally friendly effort? Could he be preparing the planet for something or someone?

I'm not insinuating anything, I'm simply laying out the facts for you, you can decide for yourself. Did Gore go green for the environment or for a whole other green reason...


I know, I'm a dork. But I was bored.

The begining of something beautiful

It has really been too long since I've put my thoughts down on a piece of paper, for about 4 years I kept journals consistantly of my thoughts, what God was showing me, basically what was on my heart or just in my head. So I've come to the conclusion that I spend more time wasted on the computer than I should, but I'm thinking I'll turn it to good and use some of it writing. So here it is.

I suppose I could start out by explaining the gravity of the phrase "Till we have faces" in my life.
First off Till we have faces is a book written by the great author Clive Staples Lewis. It is my favorite book. This book is Lewis' rendition of the classic greek myth of Cupid and Psyche. Basically it is a story of two Princesses, one ugly and one beautiful; and the struggle between sacred and profane love. Till we have faces means that our perceptions can fail us, and how in the name of doing what we think right, we can do so much wrong.
So to get to the point sometimes we don't look past what we can see with our own eyes, and we despair. We ask "Why God would you do this to me or how can you let this happen to me", and "Why have you forsaken me?" But God is there working in a way that we may not be able to see and why is that? We might not be ready, we may not be in a place to recieve and may not have our understanding fully developed. How can we see when we've yet to have a face? How can God talk to me when I don't have a face to share conversation with. This is something that really hits home to me, I've spent my share of time thinking "God what is going on, why? Where are you" and of course we all go through times where we don't quite understand why things are happening the way they are, at least I do. So to remember this phrase in times where I am not completely in a good understanding of my situation is a great help. It's kind of like looking in a mirror dimly lit, not so good. But when face to face, much better.